I feel like we are long overdue for an update on how life at home with Penelope is, but I am having a hard time knowing where to even start. So let's just start with this. . . You guys, this is the look she has on her face the majority of the day! Can you even? JOY, just all the joy!!! It is hard to believe that just 7 months ago the decision to adopt her was so hard. I was SO scared, and felt like God was asking me to surrender to a life of uncertainty that I didn't want. Well now she is here, and every day I think to myself, "what did I do to deserve the unbelievable gift of being her mommy?" She's truly like a present from God that we can't believe is ours.
With all that said, the process hasn't been without its struggles. . . a few days after we got home, Penny bit Paisley Jane pretty bad, and my first reaction was, "how dare you bite my daughter." I immediately felt sick with guilt that I would even think that, because of course Penny was my daughter too. But at that point, it didn't feel that way, and I hated it. Even with the two precious babies I grew in my tummy, it took a while for the emotional connection to fully develop so I thought I was prepared for that with Penny. But when you hope for something for so many years, and pray so long for this baby, it's really hard to finally be able to hold her, and have her feel like a stranger in your arms. She also regressed a bit when we got home which also made things hard. She wouldn't let me rock her to sleep anymore, and if she was upset she wouldn't even let me have my hand on her back. . .But I am so happy to tell you that none of that lasted long. She now will run up to Jason and I, put both of her hands on our faces, and kiss us. She snuggles right up under my neck, and fully relaxes, and lets me rock her to sleep. She gives the most amazing, arms around the neck hugs, and looks into our eyes like she is trying to read our souls, ha. We can't believe the transformation our girl has had in just a few short months. Our connection to her is also growing deeper by the day, and I can honestly say that I love her sincerely!! A few little fun facts about Penny. . .She loves to eat. Breakfast, lunch, and dinner are her favorite parts of the day! These are closely followed by walks around the neighborhood, bath time and puzzles. She could sit down and do puzzles for hours at a time, and she is amazing at them. She is also doing so well with her sign language, and is learning more every day (especially if its food related.) Parker can't get enough of her, and Paisley Jane and her are still learning how to do life together. Sharing is hard, but even the two of them have come so far. They hold hands sometimes and randomly give each other kisses, and it pretty much kills me! Also, Paisley Jane calls her Minnie (so ridiculously cute.) We know we are just at the beginning of this journey, but overall, we are doing pretty wonderful! We can't stop praising and thanking God! His love is a beautiful thing! "God decided in advance to adopt us into his own family by bringing us to himself through Jesus Christ. This is what he wanted to do, and it gave him great pleasure." Ephesians 1:5
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